butterthisfetus

Social neworking sites, face to face, keeping up, wikipedia, texting, net on a phone... fuck the call. That's just simple! Carry beyond and on and on.
Confused... disoriented...? No job, no help, desperation.
What you know, what you're capable of don't mean shit without a stamp of approval. Notorized by factory farms of "education"
Are you fucking lost or lost in the system?
Can you even tell anymore? Can I even tell anymore?
I hate this party cause they kill my freedoms and vice versa.
Have we all gotten the short end of the stick.
Sanity, rational, sense! Not on this planet. Not in this country.


I want to be a blinded, ignorant winner or dead.

today i received a package from my brother who lives in japan! what a nice surprise! he sent me some origami paper, an origami book, a little domo robot and a charm from the yahiko shrine. somewhere tucked away in the package he had written me a letter telling me that the charm brings you luck and happiness and what did i do? well didn't see the letter and opened it :( hopefully my luck will get better and not worse.

i have jury duty tomorrow which is a big bummer. hopefully i don't get picked. i'm going to try to explain to them that i'm a waitress and having to take days off is going to affect my income big time especially with christmas coming up and all. or maybe i'll just let them know i'm crazy. haha.

speaking of christmas coming up... i'm so not prepared. all of my bills are due this week, so i'm a little stressed out about that. also i still need to get my bus ticket for my yearly christmas trip up north... everything will be fine though. i just need to not go out and spend money and as much as i don't want to, i need to work as many days as possible. christmas gifts to my siblings are out of the question and we've already discussed that we can't afford it. maybe i'll make them something.

trying not to stress.